I hate this...

I am trying to get back on track with this diet. I hate it however. But I hate the way I look and feel too. I am not sure if I am going to be able to finish it. I have a ton of kids this summer, which I love, but on top of that I love kid food. I wand mac and cheese and pizza. But I when I look in the mirror at the end of the day, I don'y like anything I see, at all, I know I can do better, but I keep letting myself down. I guess we will see what happens. I will try, I guess that is all I can do, or else get rid of my mirrors.